The answer of Where is the place that i went!

today is actually my first time goin to a "strange" place alone... without parents goin wf me... the place which i said i would like goin to during holiday is the magistrate court ( mahkamah ) . yup... dat's it! :) At first, i tot it cnt be achieved cz holiday is coming to an end oledi... thx God dat the last day of holiday, i managed to go:) i was der for the whole morning... quite interesting tho... i hav learned a lot and exposed myself to a different environment... a working field :) hopefully, i cn go to the high court next :) hehe... so ambitious... :S anyways, sure hav chance tho:)

oh ya! after dat, went to oasis... someone is so nt satisfied wf the food and kp complaining ... so hard to pls :S hehe... went bak to church and saw the grand piano... quite happY! :) having prac later... so gtg nw:S

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today i did a crazy thing... i suddenly miss my ex-playschool so much and decided to pay a visit early in the morning... who knws, i ended up chatting wf aunty ellen for abt an hour in the principal room. supposedly hav to prac wf jeremy and jason for the musical gala... bt v postponed it to afternoon. kind of enjoy the chat wf aunty ellen tho. and she actually asked me to ( .... ) hehe... i donno o... willl c la k? hav to plan my work. anyways, at last, she asked me whether i m too free.8 teachers actually went for a training. den i say sort of, den she asked me to b assistant temporarily... and i actually went to the 3 year old class working together wf alicia(nee's sis) and cikgu corrie( yup, she was der) i actually saw s.k der:) hehehehe!!! it actually requires a lot of patience to b one. the feeling of satisfaction is good one... whn u are successful in calming a crying kid? quite plenty today :) overall, quite happy somehow... i tot it was a joke or a dream ... bt it's a reality... Thx God for that chance.! i hav decided to go to one of my target place during holiday! hopefully, i will nt embarrass myself for that's my first time... will share abt wher i will b goin tomolo... :)

Holiday coming to an end??

i hav some resolution b4 holiday actually... lots of thing that i would like doing...

1. complete my homework excluding the projects for WH ( it's done )

2. 3 projects for WH ( 2's done one left ) ps. thx nee for helping :) hehe..!!!

3. practice my piano diligently ( nt sure if I'm diligent enuf )

4. go to 2 places ( 1 oso havnt go ) :S

5. to rest more ( not sure )

AiyO! i rather i don hav this holiday! so meaningless?

actually nt so tho... i hav been to the creative conference for abt a week time? 3 more weeks after dat, i stayed at home a lot. on9 a lot, facebooking a lot, practicing piano ( donno if it's a lot ) , bt i don eat a lot ( cz no food ) .... :S perhaps, iwill nt hav this kind of holiday soon! whn skul reopens, i jz gt to b ready to face all the problems once agn... no point hiding from them :S

whn skul reopens, i hav lots of HOPE(s)! anyways, i don expect my hope(s) to b satisfied bt at least i still seems to hav these HOPE(s)...

i lyk a phrase in the tvb drama- healing hands! sumthing terrible happened in the hospital. the father was a lil' psycho and did sumthing nt so good to his wife. and his daughter oso didn't choose to defend her father. On the other hand, she helped her mom. Three of them actually gt into a fight and they were sent into hospital. The husband has jz gt a lil' wound. The daughter has gt to b saved urgently. Sadly, his wife died.As the husband heard wat the doctors were discussing abt the death of his wife ( he actually killed his wife ), he quickly "ugut" one of the doctors who was holding a plate of tools for rescuing his daughter. To cut the story short, he made the whole hospital into a mess and he even pulled the hose of the oxygen from her daughter. Unluckily, his daughter died. A doctor was so angry and went to gv that husband a punch. 2 young doctors asked an experienced doctor why he first decided to b a doctor. Guess wat he answered? " To give the patients hope "

WHAT!!!

wat will u do whn sumbody treated u rl good cz that person know he/she has wronged u?

wat will u react to sumbody who always try to challenge u?

wat will u tell someone who likes to grab away everything u hav?

wat will u feel whn someone is hurting u again and again?

wat will u try doing whn that person is approaching u?

honestly, if i m u, i cnt do everything although i wish to punch that person, swear to that person, yell at that person, slap that person on the face everytime that person approaches me. perhaps, jz b patient for a lil' more while will do. and u r nt or i m nt violent after all.

This is what suits me best nw...特

叶子 - 阿桑

叶子 是不会飞翔的翅膀
翅膀 是落在天上的叶子
天堂 原来应该不是妄想
只是我早已经遗忘 当初怎么开始飞翔

孤单 是一个人的狂欢
狂欢 是一群人的孤单
爱情 原来的开始是陪伴
但我也渐渐地遗忘 当时是怎样有人陪伴

我一个人吃饭 旅行 (到处)走走停停
也一个人看书 弹琴 自己对话谈心
只是心又飘到了哪里
就连自己看也看不清
我想我不仅仅是失去你

For your information, I fell in love with this song recently after have been released for such a long long time. ( even the singer oso passed away recently ) Perhaps, it's because that's what I feel now. I gave a lil' attention to it at first, but later, I feel the same. Even the lyrics is so meaningful. 

... 像

放假已经第二个星期了。。。 看起来真的很像很空闲。 其实，我也不知道我到底有没有机会完成我为自己定下的假期目标。除了在电脑和教堂练习的时间，花满多的时间做一些我到现在都没有把握的事情。。。真得很累了。对着那架钢琴，我就开始怀疑知己的ability. 很多如果，如果，如果，出现在我的琴谱。如果我真的fail了，肯定带给很多人失望。如果fail了，我会很对不起很多人。如果fail了，。。。 有时看这那架琴， 我就后悔当时没用功， 没达到别人对我的要求。其实是我不可以， 不是我不要！我根本就不喜欢！ 我可以怎样？？只好静静不出声， 熬到aug. 17 就什么都不理吗？？在练习时，最想的是一个人在旁边。 不会都好，至少好过一点。我不是Beethoven, Chopin, Bach, Morzart 呢！期望太大，我真得很怕会失望更大！没有期望的我，很像不是我。我真的不想在想，只是希望可以快快练好所有的pieces. aural我也不知要怎样improve. :S 9 more weeks! 

对了，最近有一位朋友给了我一句话。 " If God brings you to it, He sure will bring you through it!" It has given me a lot of courage how to continue when I feel like giving up. 练琴是我最大的obstacle to overcome. 真的需要work hard 了！

p.s. 突然心血来潮用华语来写blog:S hopefully, u can get wat i mean 

Bad happenings are all over the WORLD!

I hav nt settled one, another came... hey! this is life? sure it is... bt i decided to put down the first thing and settle the second as soon as pos... it affects my future seriously. i oso don hope i will fail.. bt if i knw i m goin to fail, y bother gv it a try? i found out i m preferably academic den musical.. if u knw wat i mean... i m nt thoz artistic kind of ppl... i hav this description by one of my "Fren?" which is, my hands and my feet are the same... if u don understand, u can cum and ask me...:S btw, i m rl worrying abt my piano exam ... frm nw, it's gonna b in 9 weeks time left that my grade 8 piano exam is coming... and yet, i still hav a lot of things undone.!! the more i practice, the terrible i gt. hw??? i oso donno... so tired to think abt it... y do i still blog here?? cz i rl donno wat cn i do to improve.haizzzzzzzzz............. der will b a lot of other practices to b done... a lot of missions to b completed... a lot of projects to do.... a lot of things to plan ahead... if i fail the exam, everything that i m bc for nw are gonna say byebye to me! :'(

Wishes

i suddenly hav the feeling of writing down my wishes here... ntg materialistic... i jz write, bt i don hav much hopes on them.... they are all frm my heart... it may seems ntg to u... bt a great deal to me... 

i wish...

1. i can pass my piano grade 8 exam

2. i can complete 16 credits by this year to leave

3. i can pass the enrolment test of my selected college ( only if i can do the 2 above )

4. i can see changes whn go bak to skul

5. i can control myself and show "them " good attitude

6. i can close my eyes whn i see anything happen ( don k is better than k )

7. i can just kp quiet for another half year... 

8. i hope "they " will nt disappoint me... 

9. i hope i can leave the rest of this year wf no regrets... no hatred... no xiaowei-BOMBS exploded

i wrote this after chatting wf my ex-skulmate... i hav the motivation cz of her making me understand a lot of things... u made me cry... :S i understand wat u hav felt b4... cz i goin thru wat u hav gone thru... 

Take care! i will take care of myself and Lord, giv me strength! I NEED UUUUUU!!!!!