Hard

ahead of a decision shouldn't b any regrets but planning.... nt gonna care much abt wat ppl feel and say. but stay true to what i think is appropriate and true... i hav been sad, uneasy, mad, headache, heartache, angry, and anything that's negative, but the years ahead, God, HELP ME! i really hope the years ahead will b better. truly the years that i will b striving towards my dream. there are still many uncertainties that trouble me. i thought i could have, but it's not the way i expected. I thought things can be solved, but that's just my dream. i thought i can forgt about it, but it just remains ( mayb i really mind ). :S i thought i can, but actually i can't. Life is a joke to me now. but too bad, this is nt a joke that can make me smile.

uncertainties trouble me a lot. God bless me.

:'(

Have you ever imagined having the chance to talk someone whom you have never on the phone yesterday, and today, you get the news of him passed away already?

i have just experienced it and i was stunned.

How could this happen? i asked myself again and again. I can hardly bear it if this happens for another time.

So, people, do cherish your close family and friends. No taking for granted.

Sense of insecurity...

i just feel so... hmmm.... hope the "impossible" is gonna be nothing? or.... haiz....

Craving for life....

There are many who are trying to commit suicide today. At the same time, there are many people craving for life. Sad to say, I will be attending my ex-teacher's funeral tomorrow. Why? "Why is this happening so soon?" We kept on asking WHY??? I couldn't even believe this happens so soon. I haven't even been able to see the active her before she became too weak to meet people. I heard how this teacher of mine asked her mother whether "SHE CAN CHOOSE NOT TO DIE" just few days before her death. I am not so sure about how would you feel if my teacher said that to you. For me, i will definitely feel really really bad and sad. I somehow am reflecting about this myself. Can you imagine? Someone that is dying telling you that she hopes to have her life back! She sure has a lot of dreams unaccomplished, many things undone. She has 3 children... If you were to be her, do you think you can just leave them and hand them over to your husband without worries. SUre not! Anyways, still that one sentence. " Cherish every moment you have with your dear ones " I am sure God has His own timing. no matter how difficult to accept this fact, we still have to accept. I'm sure she's now safe in the arms of God. R.I.P. Aunty Ruth!