Pressurized

As i hav said in my previous blogs, I've failed my exam. and due to that reason, i am really sad. even a person like me, who was said that not enough effort was being put in will feel sad... sounds ridiculously rite? Actually, I don't have the right to feel so... and because i am sad, i have been making some of my frens feeling uneasy... is like crying with me? sighing with me? and feel for me. Thanks lot! At least i felt someone is there. I had a "lecture". About my "fault." and just to say, i din even fought bak... i somehow agree with wat they said. bt it's really a hard thing to do to just swallow up and move on. i really need a lot a lot of time. many ppl ask if i m goin to continue. to me, no way. bt quite many encourage me to retake... i donno... haizzzzzzzz.... one thing my bro pointed out to me that i somehow realized was... for him, being beaten is normal from young bt he live without pressure... but for me, seldom gt beaten bt full of pressure. Perhaps, pressure is juz a necessary item for me to grow. the highlight of wat he said is, If i can overcome, i will be a dragon. If i can't den i will b an insect. ( translate into chinese ) 挨得过， 就是一条龙。 挨不过， 就是一条虫。the conclusion is, i m really pressurized nw... bt i told myself i must work hard for the next term. strive to the end. don give up... anyhw, i jz need to control myself a lot whn ppl mentioned abt my failure... the tears can't drop!

Result is out!

My piano exam result for grade 8 is ( fail 97marks )
3 more to pass!!!!! i m sorry... i m sad.... i m guilty... i knw this will cause a lot of disappointment!!!! i m really uneasy... if u ask if i did put in effort... mayb no cz if i hav, sure will pass??? i dono... very confusing.... thx for those who accompanied me during my phone call wf aunty fiona.... and thx for the shoulders.... thx for the compliments even tho i failed.... sounds sacarstic bt i knw it's sincere.... sry for those who prayed for me.... i knw it's a bad news.... sorry.... :'(

Sigh....

ok... i knw i m mean. after a month, whn i go on9, i found out a lot of things have changed. frens with no blog hav a blog nw... and in their blog, i knw lots of things dat gt myself upset. ( disadvantage of on9-ing) tho i don face wat that person face as in relationship, bt cn totally change her blog into a frenship. i tot i cn have fun with my frens the rest of the year, only if i m leaving next year. bt things turn out quite badly. because of someone, everything has changed. this term is a term whn i start to be "alone". so, thx nee very much for cuming bak to skul to help out. hw i hope u cn work whole day. anyways, half day is enuf comparing to no days.... and in that blog, that person said, hope cn b wf that guy for Christmas , New year eve, and even b'day. bt me, instead of a guy, is frens. bt seems lyk they will b leaving either for holiday or jz nt around. mayb this year, i shouldn't hope to hav anything special happening during my b'day. perhaps, it's nt even important. the other day , in mentoring, i donno y, i jz told my mentor don hav to celebrate my b'day in mentoring cz it's so weird having ppl celebrating wf u and u knw it. i prefer surprise. bt who out der is so free. so, never tot of that. so, better kp quiet abt everything and continue to live the rest of my year. work hard in my pace work. i have seriously done a worse job ever. after piano exam, hopefully, i cn do better. Next term, my last term? unknown.... bt i definitely feel like... too many bad thngs happen and i havnt had the chance to go on a holiday. or even sumthing good to happen... is dat wat i will continue to face for the rest of this year??? 2009?????

piano exam result will b out next week.

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Exam is over! Result is cuming... Y&R is cuming! :S btw, thx a lot for the prayers for the past months. thx to thoz who cooperated wf me just right after exam. sorry to thoz who gt rejected by me whn u asked hw was my exam. and i returned u wf a SHhh.... and thx for understanding. many ppl ask hw's exam, my reply was, "It's inconvenient to give any opinions once result is not out." It's a phobia to tell after last year's experience. disappointed one. anyways, will wait and c. result will b out next week. grrrrrr..... very scary.... hmmmmm....