heaviness? :S

i wasn't happy for the last whole week tho ther are sum good news... i tried my best to cover up my heaviness, tense, nervous, angry, mad... bt still they couldn't be.. i tell myself, i need to be happy... bt i just couldn't tho i was laughing bt u donNo wat's in me... scary rite? anyway, i hope things will go rite. sumhw i feel dat u r jz trying to b frenly cz u think u r guilty of wat's going on... which i fl really scary of and afraid u do the same as last time. sumhw, i knw u enjoy urself nw, don hav to show off. wat u did rl makes me fl lyk hitting u. i knw u look cute bt don hav to act cute. destroyer! u can tell me is nt ur prob, bt i cn tell u, u hav this "good" skill of destroying!