Downs in Down???

it's already a month since the conflict... ther's a lot of ups and DOWNs in it... and nw, it's bak to DOWN! a lot of questions came to my mind throughout this period of time. a lot of encouragements were given in this period of time too... questions lyk... are they my FRENS?? are they still my FRENS? will our FRENship restore? these are enough to make me think... and it hurts ... ( sumtimes i rl wonder if u ever use ur brain to think... and i m curious... ) i have actually decided to stop thinking abt the faults... to stop doubting whether or nt u r still my fren ( i hav concluded wf u r stil.. i must gv u a chance )... and i actually did.... bt unfortunately, things turn out the same after all... i rl did trust u on wat u told me... bt nw? haha... it's a joke after alL!!! i prayed, i asked the Lord wat should i do? i sumhw m curious hw cn i be placed in this kind of situation... this kind of complicated frenship... i knw! it's a part of God's plan... bt i need strength... i m jz bothering abt out Frenship... ntg else... bt u don appreciate and cherish the frens u hav... and dat's rl sad and disappointed...after this incident... i donno wat u fl... honestly, deep in my heart... i m crying...